♥ KHAD(:

2010-03-12T23:27:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICIA YEO HWEE CHIN! (:

one of the good friends ive made in my poly years,

my only fellow banker. haha.

honoured not to be in here! HEH.

welcometo the club babyae.

on a heavier note,

im resorting to microblogging via twitter.

blogger is just too troublesome,

unless im super free and nothing to do. hehh.

2010-02-07T23:18:00.006+08:00

bloody mother fucker.

some people just have the nerve. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

me, being a typical singaporean,

lodged a complain against him.

hohoho.
lets see how this mother fucker gna survive.

Bwhuahuhahuahhua.

2010-02-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA.

THIS IS GOOD STUFF MAN!

2010-02-02T21:18:00.002+08:00

i need to detoxify myself after a session of hearing loads of shit and poison.
some people are just too much. too fucking much.

im officially laying down my arms,
finally gna live and let die.
but fucking not give up this fight,
nor giving her another try at friendship.

but before that,
two issues.

1) if you dont know the entire story,
keep your eyes to yourself, mother fuckers.

2) if you fucking hate what you see,
dont bother reading fucktard.

stop analyzing every word i have to say,
and broadcast to the whole wide world how you're being defamed.
and oh, to begin with, you do not have a reputation to uphold

mother fucker, dont play victim please.

& its not psychology,
you're just plain psychotic.

settle your psycho issue alone,
dont involve others please.

fuck you very very nice.

muhd fauzi, this valentine's day better be good kay! ha ha ha.

2010-02-01T23:13:00.001+08:00

pantene's hair mask is awesome!
waay waay better than sunsilk. ugh.

loves how it'll smeell of wadermelons. (:

2010-01-29T22:02:00.003+08:00

apparently you do not have any bit of humility and shame in you eh?
you are obviously a mother fucking phony.
i would love to expose to the whole wide world on what kind of person you are.

really. you are the lowest of the low.
can't believe that you fucking dare said what?
i defamed you in my blog to a lecturer?

ho fucking ho.

mind you asshole, i got fucking facts to substantiate every single word of my previous post.
what the fuck may i know you were rambling about.
as a human, i totally understand that you'll be in denial of everything i stated,
having difficulty to admit what a lowlife you are.
i couldnt believe that you would go so low just to bring me down.
sadly. i had overestimated your capabilities of being a bitch.

i fucking told you not to cross my path, dont i?
but fuck no, you just wont listen.
you just had to test my patience, dont you?
you just want to see the depths of my animosity and hatred towards you right?

well now, you will fucking get it if you want, pussy.

i think the world deserves to know the truth,
and mind you, you wont get it from susimarina
cos all she knows is to fabricate everything to her favour.

yesterday, we had a major confrontation.
thus why for the existence of the previous 2 posts.

Reason for the confrontation:

Despite the lack of contribution from this liability
and how'd she managed to screw presentation up,
we were still quite forgiving towards this ... susi.
until she just had to give us shitty attitude,
for some stupid reasons that i felt it was so stupid and unreasonable to state it here.
oh knowing her flair for creating lies to protect herself,
she gave us conflicting answers when asked.
so us, the humans with brains, know way better than to be deceived again.

thats why we decided that arrogant mofo like this deserves to get mark down,
esp for all the intangible effort (actually there's no effort at all to begin with pls)
and still got the fucking nerve to be pissed at us AFTER screwing everything up for us.

so yestdy, we skipped itfd lecture to settle this misunderstanding.
but matters got out of hand when ... well.. you know how humans are being defensive and all.

okay to summarise,
- no apologies from you know i know.
- the attitude and facial expression just give you the urge to slap the bloody face.

so, the interesting bit was that she said she would not be offering any excuses on her mediocre or lack of work and that she would take responsibility for it.

and today, guess what lil miss pussy did?
1) she totally turned the tables against us
2) retaliating every single fact we provided
3) denying responsibility for the zero input
4) blaming us for not allocating her a part to do (i know very eyebrow raising here)
5) talked as if she was a big fuck. (oh hell yes, she IS abit fucked anways.)
6) giving shitty attitude as if we did something HORRIBLY wrong to her.

now do you see why im FUCKING HOPPING PISSED AT THIS FUCKED UP... SUSI?

on the friday, we're doing the proj,
that fucker claimed to be sick.
oh poorr thingggggg.
FUCK YOU.
IF YOU'RE SOOO SICK (like you claimed just now),
its a MIRACLE aint it that you still fucking manage to work during the weekends?
i dont see the seriousness in this.
If you can fucking work, i dont see why you cant go school for 2 hours for the proj?
its a measly TWO FUCKING HOURS FOR GOD'S SAKE,
compared to your 8 hour shift that ends at 1am or 2?

this totally shows something, doesnt it?
that you fucking dont know how to prioritize.

And even if we were to be so stupid to allocate a part for you,
you think you can finish it on time, handing in something of good quality?
fuck you, rmb what happend for banking law?
you fucking made us redo your sub standard work 2 hours before deadline okay!

fucking piece of shit.
you still dare to retaliate every single word we said?
thank god, you werent standing beside me just now.
you were fucking lucky. you were fucking lucky.

i told you fucking get off my lane, didnt i?
did you heed?
oh fucking no, you didnt.

you just HAD to fucking pissed me off badly again.
well congrats, my anger for you just hit all time high.

oh ya pussy. its called libel. not defamation
apparently that shows how bright you are eh?

FUCK OFF MOTHER FUCKING FUCKTARD.

and btw, if you cant handle the truth
and had to go running to a lecturer on how i DEFAMED you,
you can just fuck off you know.
nofuckingbody force you to read anyways.

this is my fucking blog,
and i have a fucking say, loser.

2010-01-28T23:04:00.002+08:00

i shall not start ranting abt how non committal the other liability had been.
she has yet to piss me off immensely.
thus why im giving special attention to this one.

i dont think my move is too extreme.
lets hang all the dirty linen out in the open for all to see, shall we? (:

1) Maths.
deadline was on first day of school.
as usual, we're rushing for everything to be done on sunday.
so apparently, i was unlucky enought to be paired off with this ... susi.
we made a deal, ill do the researching,
and all she had to do was a lil editting and compiling.

but typical of this girl.
she cant do simple task for nuts.
hence, the next day, imagine my horror when i discovered that she handed me a printed copy of my.. research.
yes my fucking research, that she's supposed to fucking do the night before.

and AND you want to know the awesome bit, the climax??
that she fucking die die wanted to send her lil bro to school.

so make a wild guess, who'd cleared up her shit?
khad the toilet cleaner.

even when i was done with everything, guess what guess what?
all 3 of us fucking had to wait for this lil miss hot stuff to come back to do her personal reflection.

remind me again, why was i so nice not to mark her down?

2) Financial Planning
well this time, amelia's with us on this.
thus why for the sub standard work received.
hey, its better than nothing right?
poor bylove had sleepless nights, redo-ing someone's part.
and for the eyebrow raising bit..
this ... susi cant even do proper powerpoint slides.
amazing right?
the most brainless job and she cant do it properly. ha fucking ha.
poor by re-did her piece of garbage again. tsktsk.

so at fp presentation today,
guess who screw up please? (:

yes, who else.
and even had the nerve to be pissed at us.
for what?
ahh, this million dollar qn should be directed to her.

3) ITFD
no input whatsoever.

4) banking law.
apparently she was feeling guilt ridden at the start of the week,
promising her 101% for this module.
we should've known better, cant believe how gullible we were.

on last friday's dicussion,
i was again attached with the two of them.
for no valid reason, both of them kept rushing me to be done with the discussion
and split the parts so 1) can pee at home & 2) for bf's sake.

at least one of them bothered to donate some of her braincells tothe discussion,
even tho the concepts were fundamentally wrong.
i appreciate the effort tho.
but the other, this ... susi was busy with her fujitsu for cyberstalking purposes.

right, just now at time of confrontation,
she said what?
she was reading and trying to disgest the info gotten out of the discussion?

OH REALLY?
how could that be if her lecture notes and the qn paper was in my possession for reference purposes?

so someone please enlighten me,
what the fuck was she "reading"? hm? interesting yes no?

next time, lie using your brain pls,
not your ass.

we should have just let you dig you own grave from the start.
but no no fucking hell no, we were such naive morons.
should have just let you die alone.
should have, should have.

im fucking mad at myself to be deceived
and not listen the alarm bells ringing right from the start.
i just had to be a good samaritan and a good ... friend ...

i really cant believe i let my guard down.

well, i hope in the near future, this 2 weeks before graduation,
that you will not cross my path,
and i shall do the same.

fuck off.

2010-01-28T22:03:00.003+08:00

i cant believe the nerve of some HUMANS.

hm. where should i fucking start huh?
my thoughts are in a huge mess.
still seething with anger, im scrambling all my thoughts out
for the whole world to see what scum as a friend and project group mate you are.

or maybe i should start with an awesome executive summary hm?

remember the whole fiasco of susimarina being the oh so awesome freerider of my group?
and what big hooha it caused.

apparently she never did repent.
and worse it that, she never even bother to fucking change her attitude.

i cant believe i let myself to be deceived of her sorry-ness.
you can now actually take back your apologies and shove it up your ass, where it fucking belongs.

after all this while,
no thank you, no apology, no assistance offered, no initiative and no appreciation.

if you fucking know and aware that you dont contribute anything at all in the projectS,
i really dont know why you fucking have no decency to;
1) contact either of us. whats the fucking phone for? to stalk alif and his little teenybopper?

2) apologize. isit so hard to type a 5 letter word without any fucking sarcasm?

3) ask about how all 3 of us were progressing. obviously you're fucking aware of the deadline, why cant you ask whether we're in need of help. you fucking know how's our proj culture like, every night we'll be up cleaning up the mess, wiping the asses of you liabilities created. but no, while me, fel and boonyen stressing our minds off, you obviously were playing bejeweling on fb, cyber stalking till 4am in the morning and complaining of lack of sleep the next day. tell me, upon hearing this what the fuck am i supposed to feel? very sympathetic towards your weellbeing?

always knew you were a bad debt needed to be written off,
but fucking no.
chances given, one after another, but did you redeem yourself ?
FUCKING NO NO NO NO.

you are someone whom im very sorry to have met, befriended and given you a second chance.
with people like this, i rather be alone.

i dont give a fuck anymore.
you apparently never regard me as a friend,
and i think you never will.

to me, words are just words.
you could've shown me something more.
apparently its all too late.

with this, im not sorry to say;
im severing all my ties with susimarina bte rosli.

im not degrading myself further to be associated with such human beings.

you're lucky that im that nice to still bother to making you my affliate in fb.
all these time, it has been your pleasure knowing me.
fuck you very nice.

2010-01-28T00:03:00.004+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

cant wait for HH next launchhhhh!!!!

with all the stress and pressure building up,

i totally DESERVE to go on a girly spreeeee.

esp when i just activated my ibanking a/c (Y)

yes. that will keep my head cleared of all this ruckus.

ooh yes, by & fel love, its time to go for that bnj pint.

we too totally deserve some ice cream binging after all that mess.

2010-01-27T23:30:00.004+08:00

keyword: exasperated.

all thanks to humans.

am super tired always having to compromise and compensate.

its a tough job, y'know.

opps. how would they know.

they always had been at the end of the stick. for two years.

so tell me,

do my warriors and i in the wrong to feel like this.

two years consecutively, these particular 3 people had been painstakingly

carrying the burden and doing the work assigned for 5.

it isnt fair, okay.

and even so,

knwing that your efforts are merely intangible,

dont understand why cant you even have the decency

1) show up at time of deadline

2) sincerely apologize.

it isnt fair at all.

doesnt mean im always smiley and clowning around,

equates to the fact that i have no feelings.

if you do have a brain,

use it wisely please.

god doesnt create brains for nothing, you know.

i say my piece,

i rest my case.

2010-01-20T22:14:00.002+08:00

gosh. hollyhoque carries pretty threads.
am so tempted to buy buy buy.
thank god, i have NOT activated my ibanking a/c.
but the parcel should be coming soonish tho. huhu ^^ (<--very chinese, i know)

and work sucked today.
got called in to work half day today.
it would've been great IF that jy wasnt around. UGH.

im telling you, my manager is sucha pest. (i.e. a mammal that is detrimental to humans)
she thinks she's a freaking nun, running a convent school.

that bitch first denied me of wearing my contacts, just because it was colored.
THEN, today, when she was doing briefing,
she commented casually that my hair is in a mess,
and would be better if i crop it like ezzuan's hair.
and ezzuan, btw, is like bald, botak. wtf right.

so, my shift started at 8.15am btw.
8.30, she came in, having nothing to do.
she just blatantly scrutinised me head to toe.
and guess what? she sent me back up to iron my bloody uniform.
and i beg you, ask why!
BECAUSEEEEE THERE WAS A BLOODY CREASE AT THE BUTTON AREA,
so it wont look presentable whilst selling the tickets.

what nonsense right! PFT.
she's the death of me, im telling you.

she even has the cheek to tell other girls to "moisturize" their hair,
so it wont look frizzy.

as if she's that purrfect.

oh wells, like i said,
she's a nun, she can do no wrong.

and now, she's up my ass, bugging me to work during cny.
i alr told her it would be my study week,
but noooo, does she give a damn?
so much for prioritizing sch first. >.>

fuck you, jy.

2010-01-18T22:43:00.004+08:00

i think pantene's awesome.
works better than that sunsilk.
does the work even without applying conditioner :D
and i like smeelling like wadermelonsss.
remind self to purchase hair mask by pantene soon.

happy106thweek, muhd fauzi! (:
that boy's more awesome even if you spam me with 1 billion pantene shampoos.
cant wait when both of us get our respective degrees,
get married and live in our castle, happily ever after. *sighhhhhhhhh.

i realised sth!
that im EXACTLY like cinderella :D

get it?
bcos of our curfews duhhhhhhh! HAHAHAHA.

brown eyed cinderella!
hehehehehheheheheh, im a princess!

okay. symptoms of a slpyhead.

night humans.

2010-01-17T23:13:00.003+08:00

i dont like it when my mum thinks she has control over me.
dont really understand why it cant get into her thick skull that im turning 21 soon.
october aint far away. ugh.

point two.
i dont like when she uses her saccarine sweet voice
whenever she wants me to do the chores.
and changes her tone instantly after the deed is done.
very hypocritical.

thank god i only see her at night.
cant imagine how it'llbe after graduation >.>

anyways.
lil miss popular is very psyched for all the plans scheduled this coming week :D
so many people to meet, so much money to be burnt in the process. HAHA.

bad money management.
somemore i've been put on standby this week.
plus, after calculating, pay for jan wont be as much as anticipated. UGH.
and im predicting the same for the month of feb too,
thanks to end years.

hope 4seasons has plenty of lobangs this upcoming week! hahahahha!

dont think will be coming for BD tmr.
hence, more sleep tonight.

night suckers.

p/s: seems that only muhd fauzi appreciates my hellokitty.
T.T so much for supportive friends >.> (N)

2010-01-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

officially a tweeple. :D
finally bothered reviving my twitter account,
after one year of remaining stagnant in that popular domain.
and know who inSPire me?
taufik batisah and ridhuan koh.
HAHAHAHAHAH.

and i finally attained self fulfilment :D
the feeling's like damn awesome lah.
pls. im not talking abt tweeting kay.

im freaking hungry right now,
but my fridge reeks of durians UGH.
big turn off, i tell you.

work. tmr.

see ya.

2010-01-15T21:13:00.003+08:00

still contemplating.
do you think applying for a temp job at the bank now is a tad too early?

yes? no?

2010-01-14T22:00:00.003+08:00

im very aware my blog is missing out on illustrations.

so ta-da!
for your own entertainment only. heh.

i know fel would be very sad to be left out in this pic.

hence.....

....

i love my girlfriends,
our thursdays had always been awesome.
one of the little things i gna miss upon graduation. T.T

btw girls,
next week, who pangseh janetfok,
will have to treat khad to chocolate fudge brownie!!!

just so you know,
khad doesnt kid whenever it comes to studies and icecream.

for more pics, see my fb.

toodles.

2010-01-13T01:28:00.003+08:00

flu bug on the prowl.
and i can feel my migraine slowly creeping back.
thank god for painkillers.

adverse effects of being sleep deprived.
should stop working so hard now,
be it for school or money.

even if its not for me,
fujitsu still needs its rest too.

night earth.

2010-01-11T23:22:00.002+08:00

someone, please remind me again that im not to compromise my final sem for work.

someone, please be kind enough and ensure that it is embedded in my thick skull
that money is not important.

feeling very very lazy now. zzzz.

totally have zero energy left,
even to finish last few sentences of my fp report.

tsk. how????

2010-01-06T20:33:00.002+08:00

i am very easily distracted.
please, do not add in more to my misery.
Internet sometimes, is a bad thing after all.

woahh, and work today is very naggy T.T
every thing i do is a subject for them to nag at.

and just so you know,
i have an aversion to naggy people.
they turn me off big time, yes this includes you too, md fauzi. >.>
dont understand why people cant just talked nicely , why must they nag and nag. gahhhh.

thus, this naggy episode resulted in retail therapy, again.
i promise this will be the last.

i hope more fourseasons job comes in my waaayyy *aheeeemm. heh.

k back to financial planning 1.2.

2010-01-05T21:06:00.003+08:00

been so long since i had a proper retail therapy.

my day's not worthy to mention here. T.T
sucked eversince i stepped out of the door early this morning.

soooooooo, i did a lil spree.
that put my heart into abit of ease. :D

b's pay coming this sunday.
im soo EXCITED for him. *ahemmmmmm.

hopefully i manage to pyscho someone to replace me. T.T
suddenly birdpark just lost its appeal to me. ughh.

2010-01-04T20:59:00.002+08:00

by now, we all should be fully aware of how fragile this issue is. we've been through 10 years of compulsory education to know its adverse impacts and its really disappointing to know that even with our higher standard of education now, people are still not intellectually smart when it comes to dealing with sensitive issues.

its pretty sad and disappointing to see what the world has become.
whats the point of being clever,
when you cant get your basic moral values right.

not that im dissing anyone here.
just wanna give you a reality check.

tsk. tsk.

2010-01-03T22:05:00.002+08:00

been working my ass off the whole hols.
no kidding.
am waiting for the pleasant surprise in my posb a/c on feb 5th. huhu.

yes worked the whole hols,
and sad to say i neglected my projs. ughh.

not obliged to do full updates here.
so... till then.

2009-12-21T20:24:00.004+08:00

hello planet earth.

been pretty busy lately.
working my ass off at jbp had been a joy.
cant wait for jan 5th to come. :D

i realised sporeans make the worst customers. period.
esp those chinese aunties and apeks.
they're really fucked up, always demanding for stupid discounts. ugh.

i still have yet to get started on my financial planning 1.2
soon, i promise.

ive got a few birthdays coming up.
i am terribly sorry if i cant make it for dinners,etc.
you see, my work schedule was set like last month?
so its pretty impossible for me wriggle my way out.
esp when it falls on a pub hol.
thats like near to impossible to find replacements.

i need a shopping buddy before school reopens.
anyone up for a spree? (:

2009-12-02T00:45:00.002+08:00

------ IS ABSOLUTELY UNDENIABLY THE BIGGEST FUCKED UP FUCKER EVER.
FUCKING FLYING FUCKS ALL AROUND THE WORLD GOES TO HIM.

for god's sake,
everyone had been up to their ass doing report for thurs's presentation.
and his fucking part is to do nine bloody fucking graphs for the report,
and he fucking fucked up the only brainless work that even my lil sis fucking barbie doll can do.

ugh ugh ugh ugh.
why am i complaining this?
cos i fucking cant incorporate his fugly shitty work in the report.

stupid stupid fucker.
still fucking dare to go mia.
see whether he has the balls to turn up this thurs
and act like a fuckking pompous idiotic fucked up bastard that he is. UGHHHHHH!

2009-11-27T21:11:00.002+08:00

ill start on BD tomorrow, i promise.

no pangseh-ing, no more procrastination.

*pinky swear.

and if i ever breach this silly obligation of mine,

you are very welcome to err.. spam my FB?

HAHAHHA.

k bye.

2009-11-27T20:55:00.002+08:00

this is the infamous mr jinx btw.

(click to enlarge)

2009-11-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

i prolly had narrated this silly tale to those im close to.
call me paranoid.
but to me, it aint what they called coincidence whenever mr jinx is around.

for those who are in the dark,
ask me who's mr jinx when you see me around. HAHAHA.

okay the first incident was like two weeks ago, on a tuesday.
i still rmb it was a banking law tutorial.
so i switched on a laptop and out of nowhere, my dearest fujitsu hanged.
and lemme tell you, my fujitsu rarely hang okay!
easily switch off wireless adapter yes,
hanging on me definitely a rare occasion.
so me and susi jokingly said it may be a sign that someone might be coming to class.
and TA-DA! few minutes later out of the blue, he appeared at the door.

so yerr. tragedy number one.
then in midst of the lesson, susi got a lil chilly and thought she was running a temperature.
so yerr. THEN, after class, my eye had this weird sensation,
as in it was showing symptoms of swollen eyes.
and it really got swollen the next day and susi had fever the following day too.
so there you go. tragedy number two.

coincidence? yes no?
yeah, may blame on the weather.

so, the next tuesday,
again AFTER banking law tutorial,
yes the only class he honoured us with his unholy germ-atic presence,
my eyes got sore. thank god not swollen.
it was like red. thank god wasnt so bad for me to turn up for work.

coincidence? yes no?
prolly maybe huhh.

SO, last tuesday, yes the recent one.
he strangely turned up for tutorial again.
our suspicions? his undeniable fear for pansy, most probably.
my eyes turned an obvious shade of red by the time class ended.
and when i got home, i felt a teenybit dizzy so i popped some panadols before heading to bed.
and the next day, poor me fell sick. and poor me had work.
thank god it was till 12pm.
so besides sore eyes, i was plagued with flu and mild fever.

but i recovered by this morning.
yes the sore eyes too.
THEN, i saw him during itfd lect.
yes. he was staring directly at me. hoho.
so i told susi i gna rush down to the ladies for awhile to wash me contacts,
cos prevention is always better than cure.

THEN, somehow that *toot* went out with me,
and he gave me this smile that literally blinded me. T.T
so, too late, no amount of washing of contacts could help me.
i was experiencing loads of discomfort even after washing my contacts.

after bby sent me home,
i took a good look at myself and saw two bloodshot eyes staring at me back.
hoho, so it seems i gna have to celebrate hari raya haji with nerdy specs. ugh.

coincidence, or im totally allergic to him?
take your pick please.

and to you,
thanks alot mr jinx, jinx,
oh you fucking shingz.

2009-11-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

my sore eyes getting worse. T.T

must be that bugger.

its always him lor, please. ugh.

wanna know a cool shit?

just type http://www.googlegooglegooglegoogle.com/

awesome shit, i know.

please please, i hope my eye condition doesnt worsen.

i do not want to be working with my nerdy specs on tmr.

ugh ughhhhhh.

why oh why must he turn up for banking law today? T.T

2009-11-23T22:33:00.004+08:00

so it was mr caleb's wedding yesterday.

it was very very very pretty.

and the location was at st regis.

gonna make my muhd fauzi save up his money,

and we'll have a wedding at stregis abit similar like mr caleb's.

no void deck wedding. meaning no freecarpark for all of yous. -.-

heh heh. oohh, and the food's gna be all halal.

and no alcohol. *stares pointedly at drunk sissy and assman.

pictures. at. fb.

be more resourceful,

tag yourself.

2009-11-20T19:46:00.003+08:00

fauzi's booking out soon,
so better update blog before he nags like an old woman.
PFT. pot calling kettle black. PFTT!!!!

this week has been pretty good yet very very exhausting.
been working my ass off as usual.
but unfortunately for me, the novelty of working at jbp is slowly wearing off.
ZZZZ.
i cant stand standing the whole day doing absolutely nothing,
except for showing my nice teeth and politely greeting the guests.
that kind of work is practically encouraging me to be brain-dead. T.T
dont really have much tolerance for this kind of work.
tsk, fasterfaster shift me to ticketing pleaseeeeeee.

im working full day tmr,
lets see how the fuck im gg to survive.

it really gives me the creeps when my parents start talking abt religion. brrr.

ooohhh, today's work was awesomeee, once again.
worked with duwi and amron.
you have no freaking idea how much crap i brought home today. HAHAHA.
oh, downside= i had to woke up at 5am cos work's at 7 at payalebar. zzzz.
and when i reached, i was the first one. wth lah T.T
the worse part was that i had to stand all the way from cck to pylebar lah.
i really really hate those fucked up chinese uncles and aunties lah.
they're like fucking kiasu and thick-skinned and horribleeeee.

now, i dont give a fuck care abt anyone at all.
im going to just sit at the priority seat and ignore the responsibilities attached to it.

i cant wait to go shoppingggg.
cant wait for pay to come in.
the first thing i gna buy is a new bag.
i dnt understand why alot of ppl to share the same sentiments abt my bag T.T
i hope i still got loads of leftovers after minus-ing the fixed expenses.

ooohhh! i just had a haircut.
so goodbye out-of-shape and split ends hair,
hello weird ughly hair. T.T

gna console myself now.
kbyecbye.

2009-11-12T22:14:00.003+08:00

today's work is freaking awesomeeeeeeee!!!! (credits: Alicia Tan)
way way way wayyy better than bird park,
that prolly put gustos in the leading position of my favourite jobs. huhu. :D

it was some loreal men product introductory thingie event.
ohhh oooohh!! i saw benedict goh!!!!
you know, the one hosted pyramid game like eons agooo??
yesss, he hosted that event.
he's really nice and totally does not look old at all!
ohh, he's somewhat like a health freak. hahah.

the whole event was kinda glam and glitzy event.
so hence, for the weird food.
and weirdly, i was working in a fully male environment today.
but it was super super funnnn lahh.

The organizers didnt order any drinks at all,
only a few weird appetizers.
hence, they had their own bartenders.
so practically no one consume the edibles provided.
so the bartenders were such a great help in providing their assistance to polish everything off,
including tomato with few shreds of mozarella. i know -.-
they are super nice lah,
they even let the bengs (read on) bring back bottle of sprite
even though they are not affliated with us in any way.

the guys working with me with gustos looked very beng.
but i tell you, they're super super super niceee!
now i know why little kids easily succumb into joining gangs. HAHAH.
okay, besides that they're insanely funny and lame,
they're really niceeee!

i.e. after work, they sent me to town
cos the location is really ulu and i could take a straight bus home.
so, we were on the busy road of orchard,
and the car was just dangerously weaving in and out of the road.
as we were nearing the busstop,
we saw 190 was just ahead of us.
so what they did was, they simply parked the car right in front of the bus,
refusing to budge till i was safely up the bus. HHAHAHAH.
omggzz,how sweet was that righttt!!

not going to rave anymore.
scared muhd fauzi gets jealous and then, emotional.
heh ehh, i miss you b, btw!

gonna have plenty plenty of rest.
gonna work my ass off again tmr @ sgh.
see you! (not as if you're invited or what lah)

2009-11-09T21:26:00.003+08:00

when i am busying myself with blogshop-hopping,

i realised it sucks to be super tall. T.T

and the ideal height is around 1.6m T.T

not fairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

if you're nice,

drop me url of blogshops that specially cater to tall, modellike people like me.

sighhhhh.

2009-11-08T23:22:00.001+08:00

i am so lucky to have muhd fauzi,

an epitome of the perfect boyfriend. <3

and for the record,

by far, i have yet to cry over love stories kay.

and never will. heh.

2009-11-08T21:39:00.002+08:00

thank you kak lyn for the treat.

as silly as it may sound,

my tummy is soo bloated and expanded

that i worry when tomorrow comes,

it will leave stretchmarks. hah.

goodness.

im sucha weirdo. HAHA.

2009-11-07T22:15:00.004+08:00

omgggzz.

i blame that felina lin for my out-of-nowhere craving. T.T

oh wells oh wellsss.

i am super duper happy with everything right now. (minus unreasonable people)

my financial status is very stable and independent.

im very succesful in refraining from asking from the satans

for more kachings to unneccessary indulge myself.

all thanks for those instant paying jobs thats been rushing in profusely.

yes yes, despite the fact that i'd made umm.. sacrifices for all those hard earned monies.

but dont fret, you worrisome creatures.

i will do no such thing, starting from next week onwards. heh. :D

oohh ooh, just incase you got this perception im cash rich.

im not all that kay.

minus all the fixed and variable expenses,

my cashflow is nearly back to square one. (i.e. zero)

plus, philips dropped me out last minute.

oh wells. dont really give a damn.

i'd worked 3 out of 5 days, i need all the babylove and rest i can get.

speaking of babylove,

we kept it very plain and simple for our second year celebration.

just in case, you're dumbdumb,

my anniversary was on the forth of nov.

initially, we planned to go on a picnic today.

but as you know, we thought that i wld be working with philips today.

so the plan is somehow cancelled.

then philips decided to pangseh me.

so err.. its abit too late to plan so we went impromtu. heh.

1) SP

both of us are equally broke.

went SP for some cheap mcd and to collect those youknow the little sticker tabs thingie.

then we exchanged our homemade cards.

i really dont wish to reiterate the fact we're poor,

so yeahh.. gifts were optional but we vowed to make each other a card

as a momento for the second year i guess.

2) Marina Square.

went there for free aircon. HAHA.

yes as pathetic as it sounds.

oohh, but muhd fauzi got me an elmo and cookie monster! (:

actually, he only got me an elmo at those toys winning area at MS.

but then he saw a guy trying his luck on the machine.

it dawned to him that the guy might actually win the cookie monster,

hence posing a big threat to him.

tsk, i dont get boys and their big egos. *shakes head.

so yes, he won.

and it got in his head that he's like the king of marksmen (the name of the machine)

so yes. all hail the king! PFT!

3)his home.

we watched movies online.

cooked maggie goreng.

watched big momma.

overall.

awesome day with awesome boyfriend.

and to ridhuan,

i know you're reading this. (:

chill and cheer up okay!

im always here for you,

if you need someone to be there so that you can rant, complain, cry, etc, okay!

same applies to boonyen, and all my friends.

khad loves every single human she's acquianted to, you know! (:

i must be on drugs to be this high and caring in the middle of the night.

k BYE!

2009-11-06T20:36:00.002+08:00

work today was awesomeeee!
and everyone is awfully nice, i tell you!
i've made loads of buddies already!!

(except for that upturned nose guy, superirritaingnakmampos!)

overall, i simply enjoyed myself immensely working there.
and hello, this is coming from a girl who harbors loads of expectations when finding work.

the downside:
my on job assessment thingie required me to interact with customers directly
(i.e. entrance booth, and noo, there arent any damn birds lurking around me -.-)
ohh emm effing goodness i tell you!
i stood for sooo effing long that i can grow abs just by standing.

and oh yeah, i was late for work.
i know. fuck. first day somemore.
fucking 194. i missed the freaking bus by a small margin,
and resulted in me waiting for the other for another 30 fucking minutes.
bus came at 9 when i was supposed to be there at nine. T.T
oh wells, oh wells.

OHH OHH!!!!
I SAW EDMUND CHEN *DROOOOOLLLLLSSSZZXXX!!
yess. im so lucky or what!!
he's super down to earth, i tell you!
he was really polite, smiling and waving to everyone.
everyone applies to ...er... me too heh.
i was too busy gaping,
and when he did smile and wave to me before he left,
i nearly had cardiac arrest! HAHAHAHH.
he was like half arm distance away from me lahh.
oh wells. oh wells.
im just waiting patiently for my taufik to make a surprise appearance.
and dont worry, this time ill be mentally ready! hahahah.

k bye.

2009-11-05T07:12:00.005+08:00

i am under undue influence and duress (by marinabay, whoelse),
to say that yesterday's work was fab and memorable. T.T

anwssss...

WE TURNED TWO YESTERDAY! (:
cant wait for the many more years to come....
... till we get married. HAHA. :D

2009-11-03T22:34:00.003+08:00

today's work at ion was very slack. (thank you so much, alicia tan ♥)
it was the official opening for sephora.
but the food was ... very ...

tssk.
i think rich people eat weird food.

oh, the people working today made such an awesome company.
and there was this malay uncle (security, i think) who was very very nice.
he asked me whther i would like to have some chocolates,
then he reached out over a counter for some very exp choc hand cream
and squeezed ALOT of my palm.
so i smelled like chocolates throughout the event.

i hopeeeeeeeeeeee more events coming in my way,
so i can finally ditch the idea of working at that birdie place.

this week im gonna make full use of me black shoes.
underpaid event tmr, birdie work on fri,
philips event on sat and sunnnn.

i think my sister is fucking stupid and inconsiderate. PFT.

on the contrary, ♥ muhd fauzi ♥ was very sweet today! (:
he surprised me by fetching me after work!
mind you, he was supposed to be having "field camp" this week or sth.
come say "awwwwwwwwww ♥"

i am going my rounds of blog hopping.
spread the love.
better start updating your blog.

kbye.

2009-11-02T22:07:00.003+08:00

i was being very productive today.

101% concentration in all modules tutored/ lectured today.

my parents would be so fucken proud of me.

so i jotted down notes during an Amaths class just now,

on the ways to excel in this particular module.

people like susimarina, please eh follow closely and religiously.

ofcourse, all these are kindly provided by

our lovely, ever so patient and knowledgeable tutor, Jeff/tan.

1) listen to the english

2) better buy the book when you're so hopeless.

3) copy the uuu, differentiate the weeeeeeee (i.e. v)

Jtan is fucking full of shit, i tell you.

whoever agrees, say aye!

2009-11-02T21:55:00.001+08:00

two more days,

to two years.

and im spending every single moment

with susimarina on an underpaid event.

2009-11-02T21:53:00.002+08:00

mind over matter.

money over school.

2009-11-02T20:59:00.001+08:00

i feel like having one of these. yummeehhh.

2009-10-28T21:55:00.004+08:00

weirdly, lady luck is on my side.

yes out of nowhere.

job offers have been streaming in,

putting me in a very awkward situation.

it falls on the day we're supposed to celebrate our two years lah,

and oh, also on a sunday. T.T

no matter what,

i MUST make it to work.

i already legally binded myself into the contract.

oh. i walked past num just now.

they got rislow's inspired slogan printed on their shirts.

ughh. can they get more spastic or whaaattt.

im hungry.

how.

k bye.

2009-10-27T21:13:00.002+08:00

im practically bursting with excitement now.
heh heh. finally god has answered my prayers
and rewarded me with a well deserved job interview.

hopefully ill breeze through the interview this thursday.

believe it or not,
im looking forward stinking of bird shit everyweekend! :D

hahah finally some movement in my dormant bank account,
after remaining at deficit for a very nong nong time.

singnet's being a bitchhhhh.

muhd fauzi's at jalan bahtera, limchukang.
that angsty bunny is feeling and smelling like shit. hoho.
i hope no one in bby's battalion will try to dispose his natural fertilizer there.
poor little trees and grasses and all the vegetation there.

hahahha okay fullstop.

2009-10-26T20:46:00.004+08:00

i. am. feeling. very. lazy.

but i will NOT procrastinate bd and banking law.

zzzz.

speaking of BD,

thats one impending doom im not looking forward to,

considering i was unfortunate to be paired with you know, i know.

T.T

hence, im putting my jobhunt to a halt.
also, no thanks to all my vain attempts to get one. T.T

and i realized that my area is actually a port for hormonal mini mat and minahs in the afternoon.
and i strongly believe the numbers will surge exponentially with the opening of ite west in cck.

ughhhh.

stupid A maths killed alot of my braincells mercilessly awhile ago.

very bad to put a maths on a monday slot,

esp after lunch.

tssk, so much for food for thought. PFT.

back to banking law. zzzz.

editted:/

will put off tutorials for awhile.

muhd fauzi the selenger bacin called.

toodleszzxx.

2009-10-23T22:19:00.005+08:00

am i the only one who totally cannot appreciate Rislow's inspired jokes?

its very not funny lor,

all this boomz, preens, bla bla.

-.-

please stop it ehh, last warning.

that is super yesteryear okay.

and all the jealous freaks, please eh control yourself. heh heh.

he's mine. huhuhu.

and fyi, my lee min ho is popping by Spore to meet me tmr.

hehehheh. *blushess.

today must be blogger's lucky day.

K BYE.

2009-10-23T21:59:00.003+08:00

jobhunting is such a choreeeee.

plus its fucking exhausting having to get the same response over and over again.

i just applied a position at rubi shoes.

i strongly strongly hope im able to get it.

if notttttt, i give up.

zzzz.

and i tell you,

handmade cards are the hardest things to make in the whole wide worlddd.

my creativity would ignite,

whenever im browsing through the handmade cards they had on flickr.

but when it comes to doing it,

ohhmyygoddd.

utter disappointment. T.T

and the uhu glue just fucked all my meticulous details. T.T

so to those who get handmade cards from ME,

you BETTER appreciate it ahh,

seeing the amount of effort i invested in it. tsssssssskk.

p/s: i have yet to blog abt ameliaandco's bday surprise for me.

next time ehhh, little miss khad is lazayyyy.

2009-10-23T21:38:00.002+08:00

correct me if im wrong,
but its that the bimbz in the videoo??!!
wth is she doing in THERE?? O.O

tskk. weird world.

2009-10-21T21:48:00.003+08:00

i think i got fucking alot of things to rant today laahhh.

1) fuck all those people who rejected me.

2)fuck all those people who gave me skeptical looks whenever i told them im twenty.

3) fuck all those fucking shops which hang signs stating vacancy for full/part time positions when actually want full timers.

4) i would like to specially dedicate all the flying fucks you can find in the whole fucking wide world to all those fucked up c_inonehs who discriminate other races. They are undeniably the most fucking fuckers who deserve to go to hell man, for depriving other races' potential livelihood. Fucking hell. If c_inese lang is a requirement, more important and sought after than English lang, then the ministry should do away with english and substitute for that former lorrrr. its very very sickening, to always be rejected cos i do not have the ability to communicate in that lang. bloooddyyy heeelllll.

hahahahahhah.
okay, dont mind me.
perhaps its the leftover of my teenage angst.

and if you must know,
for the record, i only ask two places for work. hahahhaha.

this post can officially be classified as random. hoho.

2009-10-21T21:38:00.003+08:00

i think i have the most dysfucktional family- ever.

i've got a dormant volcano for a father,
an evil old tyrant for a mother

and a very very irritating sister, the second one.

i dont mind her frequently use my stuff (i.e. clothes, mp4, etc) without any permission.
im not THAT selfishh.

but when i need to e.g. find my usb cable to charge my mp4,
she would totally ignore me or just give me a noncommittal reply.
which would result me being very very irritatedddd.

oh my godddd.

cant wait for the moment when i get married,
to finally get out of this stupid shit that they call home.

fuck all these humans, man! ughhhhhh.

2009-10-17T22:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KHAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDD.

muhd fauzi makes awesome surprisesssss.

so today,
as usual and expected,
i was late.

oh weellss. oh wellssss.

so my surprise went out like this;
it was like a treasure hunt/ amazing race.
i had to go around vivo in search of familiar faces and of course, MY presentssss.
if you read carefully between the lines,
the more people involved, the more presents i get heh eheh.
ARUN! IF YOU HAD COME WITH DARSH, I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN 6 PRESENTS LAH!
tssskkk and at the final stop (in which this mr ngweihao wasnt of much help),
baby would be waiting for me with my bday cup-cakeees!

hehhh, i really got to comment on this boy's creativityy.
he planned the awesome-st surprisees lah, i love!
and despite being very very low on cash,
he still got me presentS no matter what.

see?? how could i not love him??
even though it wasnt anything much,
still i will cherish it forever and ever (except for the twentybucks. huhu)

****

well, my parents are still being a pain in my ass.
no denying, i am deeply disappointed with how they treat me around.
even on my birthday, mind youu.

neh mind.
with a loving boyfriend and awesomely wonderful friends around,
who gives a fuck maaaaaaaaaaannn.

and they wonder why i hate sticking around at home. PFT.

AND by bringing home endless (i hope) pretty presents,
i strongly hope that will iron out their guilt ridden conscience.

till now,
i have yet to speak to my father yet.
until he is 100% cured from being possessed by THAT evil demonic spirit
of some satan lurking around,
then i shall consider.

and that woman ahhhhhhhh.
oh. my. god.
every single day she's alive,
she's literally pushing me inch by inch closer to heeeeelll.

pushing all my troubles aside,
i would love to personally thank each and everyone of you,
for all your effort and whatever opportunity costs incurred,
in making my birthday a wonderful event for me.

really.
every single dollar, every minute of your time that you've spent for 17th oct,
genuinely means alooot to me.

all of you have managed to cheer me up tremendously,
and i really thank you so much for that. (:

p/s: other celebrations will be updated on next post. loves. ((:

2009-10-17T10:34:00.002+08:00

hello yelloowws.

pardon my disappearance from the cyber worllddd.
im not in the mood to expound on any of it.

anyways anywayssss.

despite my parents evil attempts to sour my mood on my bday weeek,
some humans are super exceptionally sweet, and cheered me up instantly. heh hehh.

for me,
i loveeeee surprises, i think they're awesome.
and i love birthdaaayssss, esp the one on oct 17th. heh.
so when you combined the above two for me,
its definitely an euphoric moment for me. heh heh.

so THANK YOU deena, yunos, suhailah, bo, faiz and yana.

and a ultra big big thank youuuu to my sweetest muhd fauzi the mastermind-
for my one-week-in-advanced-birthday-celebration!! ((:

haha, this happened last week,
when we're supposed to go jalan raya-ing and surprise bo as his bday falls on oct 12th.
yerr, so it totally caught me off guard when everysweetbeings surprised me with a cake and a bday song and wonderful gifts. heh eheh hehe.

no wonder this silly boy kept expressing his err.. excitedness for bo's bday.
i should have suspected something lahh.
esp when this muhd fauzi has this tendency to be overly excited
whenever he wants to surprise me. hahahahhahahaha.

*****

and THANK YOU choy, peiyu & sak,

for yesterday and the lovely present!

hahahha, my babysister is enjoying your gift on my behalf. heh heh. :D

****

ohhh, muhd fauzi has been bugging me since eons ago,
to brag on his successful conquests on winning me two stuffed toys shown below.

*looks down.

hahah, yess. he won both at marina square.

you know, that area where there's like load of win-a-toy machines?

yerr. that placee.

ooohh, speaking of muhd fauzi!!!

he. was. like. the. sweetest. boyfriend. laaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!

i likeeeee!!!!

yesterday, before i went home,

he told me not to sleep before 12am,

cos he wanted to be the first to wish me & to tell me of today's plan.

so yerr, i placed my hp under my pillow,

just in case if i had fallen aslp,

the vibrations of my hp would wake me up.

so when he called,

he asked me to look down from my bedroom's window.

heh ehe, when i looked,

there he was, standing with a banner wishing me happy 20th.

hahhahaha, sweeeeeett rightt right right rightttt!!

i dont have a clue of whats going to happen later.

but i am supeer excited.

and i know muhd fauzi is way way more excited than me.

hahahhahahahahhaha.

these past few days whenever he calls me,

he would never fail to express his never ending excitement for today's event.

hahahhaha, melebih pulak!! hahaha.

lastly, thank you to those who msged me when the clock struck twelve.

so precise huhhh.

thank god neh jammed up my inbox. heh.

and also, thanks to those who wished me at an unearthly hour.

i appreciate it all so much!

k BYE.

2009-10-09T22:51:00.004+08:00

i have decided on what im going to do after grad.

right after final year exams,
im gonna find a temp job, hopefully somewhere in the banking sector.

then after grad ceremony,
i will straightaway apply for Bsc Finance with SIM Uni.

when i skimmed thru the brochure awhile ago,
i realized something BAD!!
they said,
"Short-listed candidates may be required to undergo one or more interviews
and/or take written admission or other evaluation tests."

ohhh-emm-geeee!!
wth lah, i thought they just take my dad's money and shut the fuck upppp.

now, i have to mentally prepare myself for all these lahhhhhhh. )):
totally ruin every single thing i've planned out for my future. T.T

HOW HOW HOW HOWWWWWW???!!
I DONT WANT TO WORK AT MAY/BANK FOR LIFEEEEEEE!! T.T

p/s: any back up plan susi? HAHAHA.

2009-10-09T13:59:00.002+08:00

i am lazy to drag my ass out.

and the wicked witch of the west is bombarding me with neverending chores.

coupled with incessant nagging.

we've been at it since morning.

remind me to stayover my granny's next week.

some people are born to be assholes.

2009-10-09T13:16:00.002+08:00

i lost track of time, really.
i was under an assumption that by's bday is today. heh heh.
hope lil ms 19th has yet to make her rounds of bloghopping.

so amelia arranged an advanced bday celebration for her on the 30th.
we went to eighteenchefs at tiongbahru for a dinner cum celebration.
i tell you, the food's good and the price could be considered as reasonable.
and the service was damn awesome lah.
the service staffs were burly and heavily tattoo-ed but they served us well.
i think practically all those who worked there for the night,
had managed to pop by our booth and wished boonyen personally lah.

i give eighteenchefs two thumbs up. heh ehh.

anywaysss back to the pointtt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAN BOONYEN. (:

i tell you, she is the most motherly friend i ever have so far.
with amelia, coming in first runner up,
follow by felina lin. hahhahahahah.

okay back to main point.

hope you love the present we've gotten for you! (credits: ameliachung)
have loads of fun at hk,
i'll see you when school reopens. heh.

oh. my. god.
one more sem to graduationnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!??!!!

2009-10-08T18:53:00.002+08:00

yestrday's interview went well, ithinkk.
but i dont think im able to commit to such demanding job.
it requires me to commit 4 weekdays and 2 weekends.
pretty impossible lah, esp when skool's reopening soon.
but then again, he offered me to work only in the weekends.
we'll see how it goes lah ehhh.

timetable's for this sem is very similar to the previous.
i got my wednesday free,
but its all the way till fivepm for the rest of the days minus friday.

im going to search for a job pronto.
prefarably somewhere near my area.
i alr got my sights on famous amos lot1,
but i have no idea whether there's any vacancies not.

while im still err.. socially inept and unemployed,
i have borrowed enough love novels from the little black dress collection
to immerse myself in till school reopen.
that'll keep me occupied for now. heh.

oohhh, and this good indian friend of mine, mr arunkumar,
has just left mainland for tekong early this morning
to train himself to be an encik. heh heh.
dnt be surprised if you see him escorting the president,
in next year's national day parade. hoho.
okay, thats abit too farfetched. heh.
so that leaves me being the only one,
when the rest goes on and on and on and on about army life. PFT.

okay, back to love novels.
BYE.

2009-10-06T12:51:00.004+08:00

i am sooo exciteddddd!!!

ive just landed myself an interview tmr as admin asst at some tuition ctr.

i knoooww, like so buang tebiat right right right right?

school's starting like in 1 week plus

and now then im scrambling around to get a job?

aiya no choice alr.

despo times call for despo measures.

i need a job to support my expenses right now,

and also bf's. heh.

i. am. super. excited.

it doesnt really matter if i get it or not.

this is my first time bothering to skim through the recruit section,

and braving myself to call up.

first attempt, success ehh!! hehe.

i reckon the job should be super easy

and pays alot. (that whats matters. huhu)

and and its super near my hse,

and i think the timing's flexible too?

whatever lah ehh,

let see how the interview goes tmr.

dont really habour so much hope in this,

cos that guy alr said me "unable to converse in mandari is alr a big disadvantage"

>.>

tsssk, to think of it,

after all the excitement has died down,

i dont feel like working.

hahahhhahahah.

okay this post is very unnecessary. hoho.

2009-10-03T23:11:00.004+08:00

phobia2 was er.. abit too gory for my liking.
actually, its all about karma, all those first few segments.
like what goes around, comes around.
and if it has yet to come, just you wait.
karma will bite you in the ass at those times when you least expect it.

but i like the last segment of the show, damn funny please.
instead of scaring myself off and shitting bricks (like muhd pozi),
i was laughing my ass off.

wanna know a secret?
huhu, my muhd fauzi is scared that kate haunts him.
wahahahha, yes only the body big,
but on the inside, only god and his gf know. HAHAHAH.

oh wellsss.
anyone got any lobangs for weekend/ part time jobs??

im very the sengket now.
in other words, short of money for school.

apparently my hari raya stash is depleting at a very very fast and worrying rate.

zzz.
i hate this materialistic world.
why cant we go back to the days where everyone just walk around naked yet still leading a simplistic life without any worries and thus, having no pimples spreading around their faces like those wild bush fires that usually occur in australia and cause spore to be very hazy and me being asthmatic, finding it hard to breathe as there are no clean air around and having minor migraines as a result of lack of oxygen in the house?

is that so much to ask for?

okay now im ranting.
maybe i should divert my excessive energy to something more productive like sleeping.

K BYE CBs.

and while im up to something productive (in moments time),
why dont you people do something productive by helping or referring me to some parttime/weekend job so i wont rant and blabber around like some old wicked witch of the west and not just wasting your time reading other people's blog and not minding your own business.

okay. now im sounding angsty. hoho.

2009-10-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

meet me halfway- BEP.

see the vast difference in skin color!!!
hahahha, please someone donate some SK2 for this muhd fauzi!
hahhahahahah.

i know this vain boyfriend of mine would love to see a post bearing his name.

i just got back having dinner together with him and the baby.
we had my craved laksaa at wdlands banquet.
so yummmyyyyy.

and this baby ahhh so horrible!!
i think its the first time she eating it,
she asked for soo many refillsss. =.=
and she drank loads and loads of coke.
AND NO thanks to this muhd fauzi lah. >.>

and very awkward for me lah.
this is the first time im ever offered a priority seat,
by and OLD auntie!! my god.

and i got few stares while i was walking around with the baby. PFT.

this is a very random post.
im just waiting for md fauzi to get online.

okay he's here. BYE.

2009-10-02T12:58:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY HO PEIYU!

HAHAHAHAHA.
really, no one forced her to take this kind of pics.

its on her own free will kay.

so, me and choy, being the sweetest friends that we are,

made her a photo collage.

Er, i realised that i took photos with this particular clique of mine,

on very very rare occassions.

it was kinda hard to make a proper collage,

with the lack of pics.

but nevertheless, we had to make do with whatever we had.

im pretty lazy right now,

ill just summarise the pre birthday celeb in key points kay.

it was a kind of an impromptu thing.

we made plans the day before.

weirdly though, everyone was available on the wednesday.

so choy and i planned to do it around 12.30,

with the necessary supplies bought from artfriends, taka.

haha, typical us werent on time.

so we ended meeting peiyu and sak thirty minutes later than promised.

maybe we did on purpose or not,

we got an ultra big frame for her.

poor sak had to lug it around town,

while we're happily went on a spree.

err, actually it was choy who went on a spree,

not the rest of us. hahah.

each of us got something from uniqlo,

but this choy was feeling extravagant, i guessed.

she bought two unnecessary bags and a pair of flats.

tssssskkk.

ive got a long list of apparels to be bought for school.

but lemme think about it for awhile lahhhh.

standing next to this choy,

i really feel like a scrooge lah.

heh heh, but at least im a scrooge with loads of discipline. hoho.

so yerr.

we didnt really celebrate peiyu's bday.

but we surprised her with a gift lah.

hope she like it very very much.

the next time we pop by her hse on oct the 16th,

im expecting it to be hung on the living room

or some prominent place that will have the same effect as the living room.

heh hehh.

so to my bff of three years,
i hope you really like our sweet and touching gift to you (you better ah!).

and i hope you'll have a good birthday to day,
and have the best 19th year living on this earth.

okay i totally suck at writing this kind of thang,
but i sincerely hope you get what i mean heh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HO PEIYU,
WE LOVE YOU!

p/s: hm, should i blog abt boonyen's celebration?
er... maybe some other day lah ehh.

2009-09-28T18:10:00.001+08:00

aww, syurgacinta is soo touching luhh.
i super like the ending.
but the storyline abit common and expected lah,

B! i want you propose to me like that kay!
you BETTER ah!! heh heh.
so now on, start learning how to play the piano.
and ALSO, save money for me diamond ring ehhh!!! :D

no compromise!

k end of story.

2009-09-28T16:35:00.002+08:00

im loading syurga cinta now.
and it is taking sucha nong nong time.

i dont really like it,
when in movies, they try to "promote" how good m-sia is as a country.
*rolls eyes.

if they're THAT good,
then they shouldnt do so much promoting whaat. PFT.

its time that they have a reality check.
that country is practically crawling with robbers, corrupted police.
disgusting ehh.

Esp yestrday,
i was otw back to spore around 10,11?
few metres away from immigration,
there were those stupid corrupted policemen instructing some sporeplated cars to the road shoulder.
stupid right!
the whole place was jammed up alr,
then they're doing stupid stuffs like this? PFT.

and this is why the word stupid and disgusting exist in dictionaries.
people like them make such great examples.

2009-09-24T14:20:00.003+08:00

yestrdy was out with my bf's elder sis.
i didnt know ion is sucha shopping haveeenn.
i likkkkkkkkkkkkeeee.
im going to drag my muhd fauzi there one day before sch reopens,
to stock up my wardrobe with alot of basics from uniqlo lorrr.

meanwhile, im going to collect as much green packets i can over this weekend!
heh, my dad's renting a car right now,
so heh, we're going jalan raya, changing gear to full speed ahead. :D

and this muhd fauzi seems to be very free.
it doesnt seem like he's being doing any work at all.
must go complain! heheh.

oh ohh,
he's now a transport supervisor at smb camp.
sooo slack lor, must go complain to SAF, wasting my father tax money ehhh! heh.

and he's living in some haunted house bunk.
i think he's very scared lah at night. hahahah.

okay i dnt knw what to say alr.
and my eng is getting from bad to worse. goodnesss.

oh, results were like shit.
you'll shit bricks just looking at mine.
thank god my parents dont have a clue whats a gpa is. huhu.

k byeeeee.

2009-09-22T21:32:00.003+08:00

okay i had promised one private fauzi to update for him to read
by the time he comes home today.

err.
lets see.

raya was so-so.
nothing special, nothing great.
but it didnt measure up to my previous rayas.
must be the recession!

first day of raya visited both grandparents.
on second day, i went raya-ing with fauzi's side.

i think i know why this muhd fauzi wants me to update my blog.
COS HE WANTS ME TO BRAG TO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD THAT HE DROVE YESTRDAY!
AHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
PECAH RAHSIA HUH MUHD FAUZI! HUHUHUHUHUH.

yes yes, whole wide world and the universe.
muhd fauzi bin suja'eh drove a honda stream ystrdy.
he drove like a maniac ystrdy lah.
i dont think he gives a damn abt the speed cameras which are perched on top.
cos when you're in the car,
you cant really feel the speed when you're travelling at 120+km/h.
unlike when you take bike lahhh.

so yeerr.
moral of the story:
dont get married too fast.
if not, no duit raya!!!! heh heh.
this totally motivates me to go for degree next year, instead of working first. huhu :D

ohh this year,
me and baby are going green! HAHA. like literally.
we recycled our old raya clothes.
cant really be bothered to go geylang to hunt for new clothes lah.
esp withe this muhd fauzi, being ever so busy with his ns life.

see. *looks down.
this is us in TURQUOISE.
please note mr fauzi TURQUOISE, not terqoise. HAHAHA.

OOH. this is me and his sister.
pretty right! heh.

okay, somemore what you want to know!
ohh, i dont have pics from my first day of raya-ing.
cos my cousins are all boys.
boys dont like to take photos. unlike this muhd fauzi. *looks below.

this is what happened if you leave your camera unattended for awhile. tskkk.

okay.
i dont know what to rant alr.
i have enough of disturbing my boyf for now. heheh.

k byeeeeeeeeee.

2009-09-13T23:18:00.003+08:00

ive got so much angst in me,
i have no idea where to vent it all out.

stupid bd/fyp.
old wicked witch of the west is not helping. at all.
oohhh, and i soo am not into the mood of dwelling further
into my petty relationship problems.

its a wonder, really,
on how i still am able to withstand and tolerate shits catapulted right at my face.
like right now.

stupid witch.
on and on with her incessant nagging.

u.g.h.

2009-09-08T22:54:00.003+08:00

whats the point of displaying your affections in public,
when in reality, its a whole different story.

at this time of adversity,
where are you again?

words are just words.
please dont go around deceiving others.
its just not right.

but then again,
whats new.

2009-09-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

and there would always be some special hotstuffs
to whom i would love to dedicate this to.

fuck off. _l_

2009-09-07T23:41:00.007+08:00

bd presentation today was horrible.
just as i expected.
how in this fucking world can we excel if
our own bloody group members dont give a flying fuck to this fucking final year project?

i can tell you frankly,
the whole fucking report and powerpoint presentation were just fucking ooozing
with my all my hardwork, time, sweat and effort i invested.
its just fucking me, myself, my microsoft and alast all the way for this fucking fyp.

i can fucking put my money and bet that
the only time they saw the fucking report was the time i sent in to them on 17th of aug.
remindme again, what date was it again today?
that wasnt even the fucking final report lah.

tell me what have i done to deserve all these pieces of craps as my groupmates lah.
really, regrets are piling up sky high right now.
what was i fucking thinking to join a group like this lah.
thank god, thr's alast around.

fucking lazy asses.
who have no fucking initiative,
fucking no gratitude.
even when the whole thing was fucking done up nicely for them to fucking execute,
why cant you just do it fucking properly.

it fucking hell hurts to see everything ive done,
something i put my all into,
just go down the drain like that.

well. what did you know anyway?
you fucking do nothing, just shut the fuck up lah.

dont you know,
empty vessels make the loudest noise.

and why again my life is revolving around ignorant people?
fucking fucks.

2009-09-06T20:41:00.003+08:00

first of all, you're very ignorant.
just simply refused to acknowledge situation at hand.
im pretty sure you're very aware that i was in the foul-est mood,
but nooo you wilfully shut your eyes to the obvious.
ignore ignore and bloody ignore was all what you do.

then the hypocritical part kicked in.

dont bloody say you miss me, yadayada,
when in actual fact, when you're out of camp,
you totally cant be bothered with my existence.

please lah, im someone with a bloody curfew.
i dont understand, which part of my before-curfew hours
you having troubles allocating your time to?

and i honestly feel that yawning in the presence of a human being is extremely rude.
especially excessive yawns.
and especially when it was attributed by latenightoutwiththepltmates.

i already feel that its bad enough that you cant be bothered telling me.
okay whatever, i know, a girl in my position dont really have a say in your whereabouts.
but please lah, you just met them like awhile ago bfore book out.
for fuck sake, you eat shit sleep with them for 24/7 five fucking days in a row.

if you fucking love them so much,
then go marry them instead lah.
better for you what, no more conservative inlaws to please.
no need to change for the better alr.

okay. fullfuckingstop.

and remind me why i shouldnt be pissed at all. really.

thank god for tekong. ughh.

2009-09-06T12:55:00.002+08:00

somepeoplearejustplainannoying.

soannoyingthatyourannoyingtraitiswaywayfuckingwaybeyondme.

2009-09-04T14:46:00.001+08:00

H A P P Y T W E N T Y- T W O M O N T H S (:

2009-09-03T22:35:00.002+08:00

i think im multi-talented please. :D
a week before i was such an awesome farmer,
and now, guess what am i now! (:

im like a frigging fisherman lahhh! (:
told ya, im talented heh heh *proud smile.

i have no idea why am i easily succumbed to all these lame games lor!
after one, comes the other. -.-
not a good sign.
this shows that im really socially deprived lah, having to seek all these cheap thrills. -.-

anyways anywaysssss.
bankin law was weirdly straightforward.
BUT she killed us with loads of shits to write within 2 hours and 10 minutes lorrr.
i didnt know evil can shape-shift in many many ways -.-
overall, do-able with the exception of qn 1.
freaking stupid, i tell you!

rmb i was hoping that chapt one wont come out? -.-
yes, in the end, it did.
came out in one effing big qn worth 20 fucking marks lahhhh.
SEE! what'd i tell you?!
panty tan is evil AND scheming. -.-

ooh oooh!!!
my hunny bunnyyy is sooo lovable that
he's one of the candidates for top 3 best recruit.
ooohhh, me sooo soo proudddd of my darling platoon ic. ((:

he's having a 16km route march all the way till night.
thats why he still has yet to ring me up TSKK. =.=
i knooooowww, how canhe prioritize trees and marching over me right!!
totalleh outrageous. HHAHA.

K BYE CB. (:

2009-09-02T13:52:00.003+08:00

im finally raising the white flag.
no point going on mugging,
it just plain messing with my braaaainnn.

countdown has just begun. (:

*sniffsniff.
whats that smell?
.. smells something likkee.. freedom! (:

5 more hours. 5 more hours.
have mercy on me, bank-ing lawww.

2009-09-02T01:22:00.002+08:00

plagued with zits, pimples and acneee. ):<
that made me more angsty, coupled with my incoming pms symptoms.

i am more interested in worsening my facial condition,
than to improve my grades lahhh T.T
very very wrong prioritizing here.

MJ was having troubles with sleeping,
TSK should have tell me lor.
i wouldbe more than glad to give MJ all my lect notes and textbooks.
in which i dare give a 150% gurantee that
MJ would have never faced this insonmia problem ever again.

clayton beginning to sound like claypot.
god, my brain's turning to mushhh.
this is what happens to those who only swore by last min studying.

omg. focus focus.
15 more hours to paperrrrrr.

2009-09-01T23:05:00.002+08:00

my brain is very very saturated now.
and im left with clayton's rule and chapt one.
last time i checked with amelia,
she said both are equally important. T.T

but its amelia,
everything to amelia is very important. HAHA.

hoooooooooooooooooooooowwwww nooooww.

i cant fit anything inside anymore.
does anyone has an extra harddisk to sparee? T.T

OH.
did i mention k-tai sucks?!!
investment was a killerrrr.
his bloody ass paper was like an act of killing a number of very helpless and unresisting
human beings under the circumstances of cruelty, i tell you.

very very sadistic of him.
and to pour ten gallons of salt on my wounds,
my marks for MST was very mediocre. T.T
oh no oh no oh noooooooo.

i cant believe i forgot the fibonacci ratios lahhh.
see lah, one big smarty ass,
try to "spot" questions asif it was a fucking combined humans exam.

i got 17 more hours to kill before bankin/g law paper.
hope panty t-an has mercy on us. ):

p/s: no clayton rule please tmr, and chapt one toooo T.T

2009-08-28T01:18:00.001+08:00

die die die die
still very unprepared.
how now?!

2009-08-28T00:24:00.002+08:00

eff-fucking youuuuuu, cf.

my 2gb brain and my external hard drive gonna bring you down tmr T.T

stupid lgl and psycho nagging old hag. >.>
why oh why cant their papers be straightforwardddd.

my brain is like .. super saturated now pleaseeee.
and im still not done with memory work yetttt. ):

stoning is the best i can do now.
all the best people,
rest welll for tmr's battle with the devil =.=

2009-08-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

okay, im not at all comforted by the fact,
uncle tan has finished marking our exam scripts.
yes that exam i took like 14 hours agooo. T.T

i knoooww, damn fast or what right??!

please please please lemme get at least a B overall.

*MORE HINTS ON MY WAY PLEASE, UNCLE TAN! :D

now, im soooo distracted and not motivated at all. ):
how now brown cooooooooooooowwww )):

and fuck you, CF. ugh.
whooops, i rmbed. the holy month. huhu.

2009-08-26T00:51:00.002+08:00

im sooo stressed that
ive got pimples on my temples. -.-

now i know why people say fingers are so dirty. =.='

im sooo stressed that
im going to drag boyfriend to go food-binging with me
when he books out (hopefully) on thursday.

all those fatty oily sinful food,
come home to mama! :D

2009-08-26T00:34:00.003+08:00

A written undertaking by the issuing bank given to the beneficiary as instructed by the applicant to pay up at sight or determinable future date up to the stated sum of money, within a prescribed time limit, against stipulated documents.

(bet you dont knw whats this. AHAHHAHAHA)

wahhhh BAIK PER KHAD!
translation: waaah khad so goood.

i knowww. what so good right,
when its just the beginning. -.-

business risks; corporate financial statements;
trade finance; real estate finance; syndicated loan.

im putting a big full stop to this mugging shit.
its not doing me any good.

UGH.
neh mind neh mind.
by 11 am tmr,
sayonara CRAA!

please please please,
let my babyboy out on thursdaaay. ):

and p/s: dont try so hard. huhu. (:

2009-08-20T17:32:00.003+08:00

i went facebook hopping
and i found baby's secondary school pics.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
soooooooooooooo cutteeeeeeeeeeeeeee huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!

should i post here?
nahhh.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

2009-08-20T00:37:00.001+08:00

KHAD HATES TECHNOLOGY FOR ITS DISTRACTION!

STUPID STUPID TECHNOLOGY.

back to bouncy balls.

2009-08-18T22:11:00.002+08:00

i think i got the worst facial condition on the face of this earth.
i bet there are more open, clogged dirty pores on my face,
in comparison to the moon.

yer, my self esteem is as low as that. ughhhhh.

i want to watch orphan and the proposal.
stuupidddddddd examsssssxxzz.
ugh ugh ughhhh.

and fasting month is like a few days awayy.
i hope ill be totally cured by then,
please please pretty pleaseeee.
ohh, i strongly hope that this fasting month i wont grow any skinnier.
i dont want to look like victoria beckham, minus the fake boobs. ):

and ohh my bd presentation is brought foward.
yes, like again.
i think its damn awesome to be doing client based fyp,
compared to you know.. *snickers.

speaking of snickers,
i crave for a barrrr or two... okay maybe a dozen will make me happy. :D
and ohh, add in coke too.

my coke consumption has been sooo high,
till plain water feels weird on my taste buds.

how ironic that;
everytime when im free,
i cant be bothered updating.
yet when ive got like exams looming over me,
ive been diligently blogging every hour of the day. -.-
this is not good.

i cant believe i spend the whole day of yesterday doing BD report,
and got to knowits being postponed.
tsssk, all those opportunity costsss.

why cant all modules be as straightforward as banking law??

okay back to banking law.
zzzzzz.

2009-08-17T22:29:00.002+08:00

how now brown cow.
im sick.
peiwen's recovering.
gwenda is quarantined, suspected of having h1n1.

whats going to happen to our presentation this wed,
only god knows.

please please please, postponeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-08-17T16:18:00.002+08:00

microsoft word document is my bestfriend.
i spent my every single night without fail with it.
i wake up to it, i slept dreaming of it.
heck, i think i spend more time with my microsoft word than my boyfriend.

2009-08-17T01:04:00.002+08:00

this kind of suck.
when i was finally done, re-doing the whole of my grpmate's part,
some shit just HAD to occur. -.-

the file of which i was editting,
happened to be a temporary file.
yerr, all the while i've been saving it,
without realization hitting me its a temp file. -.-
so when i closed the doc to send to alast,
i couldnt find nor retrieve it anywhereeeee.

so i have to redo the re-done part.
what the fuck right right rightttt.
just my luck to be cursed with all these whenever im doing projects.

sigh sigh sigh sighhhhhhhhh.

approximately two more days before BD/ FYP is finally over.
gosh, suddenly 48 hours is like so fucking far awayyyyy. ):

and you know whats the worst part,
besides the fact im so sickeningly sick?
its that i kept venting my anger on my faceeeeee!!!
so yes, KA-BOOM!
zits here, pimples there, acne everywhereeeee!
doesnt really help that my sleeping timing is totalleh screwed. -.-
for someone who always sleep at 10-11pm,
this change of timing of which im beginning to accustom to is definitely not doing me face any justice.

oh no oh no oh noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

lets us all hope that this is just a bad dream.

taufik, sing more lullabies to me please.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

2009-08-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

i vow that from tomorrow onwards,
i shall ensure that ill get some studying/ revising done.

three more days,
then ill be free from BD/FYP.
well, err free for the time being only. heh.

and this sicky bug bit me at the wrong timing man! ughhhhhh.

2009-08-15T00:47:00.002+08:00

had a mini gathering with
arun, saf and ng wei hao just now.

and the new spore movie "where got ghost" is like damn funny lah.

okay, im just killing time,
to charge my mp4 and wait for my mask to harden.

remind me to do this mask thing more often please.
my facial condition is getting worse with every single passing day.
it doesnt help with this upcoming exams hovering over me,
pushing me to be more pressurize and stress as ever. ugh.

why in the fuck did i choose this stupid course anyway?!
being in this course is like having cancer,
whereby the pain is prolonged and recurring.

i used not to have pimples before,
but now, its like fucking everywhere lah! >.>
and those scars on my face, are like fucking permanent!
it doesnt seem to go off lahhhhhhhhhhh.
like wth right right rightttt?!!!

and ohh,
this stupid kose mask is exactly like that blueberry bodyshop mask i used to have.
except for the fact, kose masks are black in color.
wth lah, i think i just got ripped off. -.-

sigh sigh.
tough luck.
why am i so unlucky these days?!

okay fine whatever.
mp4 fully charged now.
my taufik gonna sing me to sleep again. heh :D

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2009-08-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

i hate fickleness in a person.
and i definitely hate those who are indecisive.

and i feel like meeting taufik batisah.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

dont ask me why the heell i feel so cranky now.

someone get me taufik batisah to cck central right now.
i need him to serenademe so i can finally get some shut eye.

zzzzzzzz.

2009-08-13T01:43:00.003+08:00

revenge is fuckinng sweet, i tell you.

so lets get this right;
its totally fine by you,
giving us this fucking piece of crap.
BUT its not fine when i return the favour, giving shit back?

well, welcome to the real world, missy.

what you fucking gave, is what you will fucking get.
karma is a bitch, fucking glad to know you're fucking learning it the hard way. (:

like what i fucking said before,
i should vent my angst more often this way,
fucking stress-relieving, i tell you.

make my life miserable?
bring it on. fucking bring it on.
i fucking make sure you fucking get hell.

CHEERRRSSS. (:

2009-08-12T01:39:00.002+08:00

late nights can never be better.
doing projects at this hour is absolutely orgasmic.

all of yous should try.

in few more hours,
ill be meeting my hunny bunny
with ugly black circles under my eyes and huge eye bags.
and not forgetting those huge bumps on my cheeks.

god, and they say year three is awesome?!
>.>
misleading, indeed.

few more months,few more months.
pray that SIM wont be as shitty as this, man!

2009-08-11T23:51:00.006+08:00

after one, comes the other.
truly what i call, an epidemic.
thr's this new "Anti Matreps & Floatin Caps" at facebook.
not as entertaining as the female version though.
*yawns.

i doubt there would be much retaliation on the matreps' part.
again, only the female counterparts are prone to you know, this kind of bitchy stuffs.
so whats after this?
"Ah bengs & Outlandish Hairstyles"?
PFT.

BD presentation pushed forward to next weeek, thank god!
more time for banking law, which due like on thurs. urghhh.

my boy's booking in back on thursday, hoho.
he's given mc for 3 days,
so this week is like ultimate blisssssssss.

ohh yess, hangover is like awesomeee!
caught it with boyf, saf and weihao.
kind of like an impromtu outing,
but its like a detox session for me.
for once, no impure thoughts of projects clogging up my mind.

OH!
poor amron got into a bike accident. tsk tsk.
we visited him yesterday. and just by looking at all his injuries, got me wincing in sympathy.
to think of it, i kinda grateful that my accident wasnt as bad as either amron's or weihao's.
and AND for the first time in 7368928840789 months, baby vroom-ed at a slow pace on the way back.
well, that was only at the start lah, before he got bitten by some road rage angst.

and this anugerah talentshow is getting boring every single year.
trust me when i say this;
singing talent alone will get you nowhere in this tiny red dot.
unless you're darling taufik batisah, then we can compromise for a whole different story.
really, suria is totally wasting its resources in these bunch of kids.

and that wawan guy has this striking resemblance of someone i know! :D
and rmb when i say i wished i get to reunite back with my childhood chummy buddies?
my wish was partially granted heh.
err, i saw md alfian bin saat got out of his house,
so i purposely lah cross the road faster to bump into him. heh heh :D
long time neh meet okay, thank god he still rmb meee lala~

okay im perfectly aware im digressing.

*yawnsssssss.

back to banking law.

*BIGGER YAWNSSSSS.

2009-08-11T00:54:00.002+08:00

projects fucking drain the life out of me.

thank god boyf is around the whole week :D
thats a luxury that i can never afford. (:

2009-08-05T23:14:00.004+08:00

i see a huge surge in readership in this past two days.
told cha, you always wanted the whole world to know your story,
there you have it, little miss hotstuff.

apparently, after that awesome controversial post ystrdy,
someone has still yet to learn her lesson huh.
hence, with all in agreement,
i've decided to take action & resort to the ever-so-lovely peer evaluation.

warnings have already been sent,
yet ignorance is what we received.

i am very aware im very mean.
you had chances but you threw them away,
so am i still the one to be blamed here, yes no?

what goes around, comes around.
hope you're having a blissful time, serving karma. (:

and well said, my awesome project warrior,
suppressing has never did any justice to us, ain't it?
♥Words of Walking Contradict

p/s: i look forward to see your final grade.

CHEERS. (:

2009-08-04T20:35:00.003+08:00

so, a little birdie whispered to my ear,
and said that i was very mean on my previous posting.
and i shouldnt go around bitching and poisoning minds of others.

oh REALLY??

well well well.
welcome to the real world.
lets get some facts right first,
before straightening some petty matters.

first of all,
i dont take defamatory statements very well.
especially coming from a very hmm.. hardworking person.
measly issues like this can be prevented and settled one-on-one.
apparently not.

secondly,
this is my FUCKING blog.
so its my FUCKING say.
mean words dont come out of the blue.
it needs some provoking before everything gets spewed out.

and hoho,
does this means that i must be reminded again of this childish matter?

if thats the case,
congratulations now.
the spotlight's on you. right here. right now.
just the way you wanted it to be.

well, audience of my lovely blog,
boyfriend, family, lecturers, students, friends, acquaintances & random passerbys.
you are all in for a very fun ride. (:

from where should we begin huh?
im very tired honestly. very exhausted.
ive been reiterating this lame shit story.
obviously, im in no mood for a storytelling session now.

yes i know whats over, is already over.
BUT i know this will still persist, if i just kept it right in.
this matter is accumulative.
and yes, my exasperation has been happily increasing with each projects piling up.

so what if our friendship has gone in ruins?
in the first place, does she even acknowledge the fact that we're friends??
friends are always there for each other, through happy and hard times.
friends always be appreciative for the presence of each other,
NOT fucking running off and ditching your friend when a guy you just knew wanted to meet/call you.
and the definition of friendship definitely does not mean ignoring all your friends' calls when they're in need of help.

so with that,
do you even dare and have the courage to deny all of the above,
just to prove that you're my friend?
can you even fucking do that?

okay wait.
this ain't personal.
lets be professional and make a big u-turn to the main issue that ive been hooha-ing about.

yes. you've fucked up the project. AGAIN.
this is not your fucking first time.
i dont care im being mean.
this is the honest truth.

i was just a breath away from telling k tai about your active participation.
but im still human, im not that evil.
if i had made sure that your marks is equivalent to your puny effort, which is a size of a nose shit,
then im pretty sure you'll get 15% for the whole project.

and to prove that this aint the first time;
http://herrandomcrap.blogspot.com/2009/01/uccd-fundamentals-of-finance-c.html
read my previous post dated on Jan 23rd 09.
EVEN in this post, ive stated again that this aint the fucking first time she's doing this to me.

so what now huh?
lets us all see how your manipulative mind gonna turn the tables against me.
im very interested to see how the retaliation goes.
go ahead, give me your best shot.
im game for anything.

im fucking pissed.
still am.
dont bother asking me to cool down,
unless you dont mind seeing my bony middle fingers shove up your face.

and what?
please, dont go around and confide to the whole world abt your issue.
the cause is definitely not about your issue.
and put that self sympathy to a stop,
its disgusting.

anyways, its because you're so fucking lazy,
that you're having trouble, big trouble, with the term prioritizing.

if all these were due to your omg-so-poor-thing issues,
why when alif was still around,
you're still the number one procrastinator around?
why in the past, when you're still in your happy self,
this last minute fucked ups still arise?

can you fucking tell me the reason why-
why you fucking like to pressurize me with all your procrastinations?!

who do you fucking think i am?
do i look like a fairygod mother to you,
who always have to be around to clean up your shits
and wipe your ass sparkling clean?
do i look like a fucking miracle worker to you?

have you even thought for a second that,
while i was doing your portion of the project,
i was not okay?
that i was under alot of stress and might be at the verge of breaking down?
does it fucking ever come across your dense head?!

and does it even occur to you why all this while i totally kept it all in,
and never voice it out?

i can bet my ass why.
you were too busy in your own world,thats why.
eh please lah, you're a twenty year old.
can you fucking wake up and realized this earth is not revolving around you?
everyone has to lead their own lives,
they cant possibly always be there for you, do things for you
and just give a pretty smile whenever you fucking shoved back your shits up in their ass.

after all, its what they call- PROJECT GROUP WORK,
not khadijah's project work.
we're supposed to be in this, together.
not me, stressing my ass off,
while you go around happily dating guys and earning money.

does dating guys give us an A at the end of the sem?
does earning money for yourself give you a diploma at the end of the yr?

BUT i tell you what happens at the end of the day,
khadijah and felina just collapsed with exhaustion.

where's the "thanks khad for everything you've done"?
what happened to "im sorry khad for what ive put you through"?

but noooo,
i just had to get some people bitching about me,
what kind of bitch i was and who the hell was i to boss around.

after two years of this,
really, is that what i deserved the most-
to be a subject of endless complains?
how lovely.

fuck it.
go pretend all you want,
deep down you should fucking know you're in deep shit.
lets us all see how you're going to redeem yourself this time round.

way to go, khad.
pen is always mightier than a sword.
and if words do kill,
i hope it fucking stab her hundred and fifty times
and wake her up.

doesnt she see that the whole world trying to help her?
and im not refering to my post, stupid.

"cheers."

2009-08-02T23:56:00.002+08:00

my exasperation is beyond words.

its very true that;
good friends does not assure you of having good and reliable project mates.

really, strong, very strong emphasis on reliable.

thank god,
fauzi's having diarrhoea next week after national day.
i really need loads and loads of lovey dovey to compensate for all THESE. *waves around madly.
and note: its PLURAL, for effing sake.

k tai is really evil, i tell you.
who in the fucking mind put deadline on a fucking monday?!!!
dumbass, really.

ohhh great,
see the pimple i just popped?
it just called reinforcements.
that makes me face like a fertile land for pimple plantation.

god, i hate this period of time.
and im fucking cranky, i tell you.
doesnt help when i only got to spend few hours with him this weekend.

fucking sb,
i hope sim's biz school wont be horrible as this.
PFT, no wonder the suicide rates amongst students (& lecturers) are soaring way up high in the sky.

*yawnnnnsss.
back to investment shitsszxx.

2009-08-02T08:30:00.002+08:00

financial ratio and relative values make me go cock-eyed.
thank god i dont have plans being a miserable accountant. phew.

lets hope k tai extends deadline,
if not, im dead. UGH.

2009-07-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

THE INTERESTING BITS, FOR TODAY.

i saw a chikopek,
all wrinkly, smelly and ugly.
had a self made tattoo of a naked woman under his wrists.
so much for work of art.
hmm, to think of it,
it kinda looked like amy winehouse.HAHAH.
cos the hair was all bee-hivy?
I KNOW. EWW.
my sentiments, totally.

finally, i live up to the name of being a SB nerd.
HAHAH. yes, i wore geeky glasses (to fahmi's excitement -.-),
to avoid aggravating my eye condition further.
poor lil sexy brown eyes swollen for three days. TSK.

i am super super loaded with projects,
projects and like loads of projects right now.
i wish that there's someone who's willing to do all the work for me,
and the only work i have to do is shake legs. HAHAHAH.
now, that is obviously not possible. *sighhh.

i saw a clipping that said;
Shaw bros are like hiring.
i feel like going for the interview.
who knows i might get posted to the cck branch? HEH.

and while the others were busying themselves with projs,
my lesbo partner and i explored this site in FB.
its called anti minahs & kenings (eyebrows).
its very entertaining, i tell you!
it even displayed a few examples lah, gosh!
and oohh ohh, the utmost entertaining part,
is the comments attached to the pics! HAHAHHAHA.
fcuken hilarious.
marinababy and i had a whale of time laughing our asses off.
weelll then, OF COURSE, we continued our discussions for our projs right after, REALLY.

and of course,
last but not least.
i enjoyed a mini show of my neighbour got locked out by his wife.
*sighhh. couples these days should learn a thing or two from me and fauzi. TSK.

K BYE.

2009-07-29T23:02:00.004+08:00

okay. you're in for a shocker.

i really really really really hope that
temasek will find a good candidate.
to have her back, is apparently such a huge mistake.

and apparently to come back home,
is such a big mistake too.

old hag here is having her pms, i guess.
goodness, so old alrdy still have pms. PFT.
fucking irritating.

and you know what this means?!
i wont be home for tomorrow.
helloooo bukit batok!

god, how many more old hags must i encounter in life?

2009-07-29T22:08:00.003+08:00

im very bored.

somebody, save me, please.

and to my worrisome fans,

my eyes are feeling awesome right now.

but still in midst of recuperating though.

and no,

im not going to answer any paparrazi-like questions like;

whether this particular organ of mine was involved in the conspiracy

of my beloved who took medical-chaokeng-cert last monday.

okay back to stoning mode.