H E R R A N D O M C R A P . B L O G S P O T . C O M ♥
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 @ 7:45 PM
update before everything i wanna say is gone.
today is ultraaa sucky. when i thought i can cover as much as ystrdy, when i thought the driving motivation will last me throughout the day, but i was damn wrongg. oh welll.
as mention, i didnt get that much knowledge in my head today. my day started in the morning. when i reached skool main lib around 10plus in the morning. did up a lil small schedule of the topics that i must cover at the end of the day. which supposedly was- - econs topic 16,17,18 - stats; hyp testing, chi sq, anova. - accounts; that lifo, fifo shits. plus the theories.
was consistent till the time hit 2plus. thats when im getting hungry. and thats when some mly guys sat beside me to study. so yerr, they had food with them, so i was thinking of food instead of concentrating. =.= left to have lunch with a friend.
then went to t15 to study, cos main lib was supeeer packed, and yess my seat's taken on my own assumption. t15 was packed toos. so studied at that unairconditioned place. again, was distracted. was too unconducive. the mly guys beside me were playing cards. and throughout the time i just stared ahead. lols, thats because smit no4 (alex) sat right in front of me. so yesss, he smiled at me and i totally forgot abt my open accounts book. hahs! omg, he does recognize me aye? hehs XD hahahahahhahah, so the whole time i was there, i didnt even manage to get any lifo fifo shits in my brain.
decided to move off to clubhse instead, cos apparently alex was too much of a pleasant distraction. HAHS XD at club, my mood's totally not there anymore. just imagine i took 2 hours plus just to complete anova and chi square? omg lahs. that shit can be easily be completed in 20 mins. but yess, i took 2 hours. that was how distracted i was. i played with a pen and the paper. doodling here, scribbling there. i drew every single thing i can think of and can draw of course! and it didnt really help when everyone who passed by, will turn and look at our cny's deco. lols! and yess when that khairul azree stopped by, i think he's like supeeeeer shocked that i really look at him and smiled. like genuinely. thats bcos i think he's the only familiar face i met today. the rest are like total strangers or acquaintances. i totally gave up the whole studying shit at 6 plus, and headed home.
feeeling supeeeeeeeeer lousy and lousier and lousiest now. its like feeling lower than low. how i wished that everything's like secondary school. when i dont feel soo dumb. when i can answer every single thing shoot at me. when i understand everything's that going on. when i can be as cocky as i can be. when im not always busy. when i dont have shits thrown at me at times. when i know everyone and everyone knows me. when my weekend schedule is always packed. when i always have the closed ones around always. yess, the last one esp.
sometimes i wish, im in australia. there with fahmi. so ill always have someone around, looking out for me. being really there when im sad or low. someone who can i always bully without feeling any guilt. lols. (:
oh well. life's always have too be harsh aye? its always like a box of cadbury roses, you dont know what flavour youll get. so when you get the flavour you hate most, thats reality check for you.
neh mind. maybe im pms-ing or sth. thanks to fahmi and rafie for the cheer up.
off now. sleeping early so can be at skool supeeer early to mug. then off meeting zack. then maybe back to skool again to mug.
good night everyone.
on a lighter note; rafie said sth that totally revealed his true colours; that is a pervertic flirt. yes. you have nooo idea what he said ystrday. neh mind. somethings shldnt go beyond my hp screen, cos if not, rafie's eyes will be like blue black, hehs XD
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 @ 7:45 PM
update before everything i wanna say is gone.
today is ultraaa sucky. when i thought i can cover as much as ystrdy, when i thought the driving motivation will last me throughout the day, but i was damn wrongg. oh welll.
as mention, i didnt get that much knowledge in my head today. my day started in the morning. when i reached skool main lib around 10plus in the morning. did up a lil small schedule of the topics that i must cover at the end of the day. which supposedly was- - econs topic 16,17,18 - stats; hyp testing, chi sq, anova. - accounts; that lifo, fifo shits. plus the theories.
was consistent till the time hit 2plus. thats when im getting hungry. and thats when some mly guys sat beside me to study. so yerr, they had food with them, so i was thinking of food instead of concentrating. =.= left to have lunch with a friend.
then went to t15 to study, cos main lib was supeeer packed, and yess my seat's taken on my own assumption. t15 was packed toos. so studied at that unairconditioned place. again, was distracted. was too unconducive. the mly guys beside me were playing cards. and throughout the time i just stared ahead. lols, thats because smit no4 (alex) sat right in front of me. so yesss, he smiled at me and i totally forgot abt my open accounts book. hahs! omg, he does recognize me aye? hehs XD hahahahahhahah, so the whole time i was there, i didnt even manage to get any lifo fifo shits in my brain.
decided to move off to clubhse instead, cos apparently alex was too much of a pleasant distraction. HAHS XD at club, my mood's totally not there anymore. just imagine i took 2 hours plus just to complete anova and chi square? omg lahs. that shit can be easily be completed in 20 mins. but yess, i took 2 hours. that was how distracted i was. i played with a pen and the paper. doodling here, scribbling there. i drew every single thing i can think of and can draw of course! and it didnt really help when everyone who passed by, will turn and look at our cny's deco. lols! and yess when that khairul azree stopped by, i think he's like supeeeeer shocked that i really look at him and smiled. like genuinely. thats bcos i think he's the only familiar face i met today. the rest are like total strangers or acquaintances. i totally gave up the whole studying shit at 6 plus, and headed home.
feeeling supeeeeeeeeer lousy and lousier and lousiest now. its like feeling lower than low. how i wished that everything's like secondary school. when i dont feel soo dumb. when i can answer every single thing shoot at me. when i understand everything's that going on. when i can be as cocky as i can be. when im not always busy. when i dont have shits thrown at me at times. when i know everyone and everyone knows me. when my weekend schedule is always packed. when i always have the closed ones around always. yess, the last one esp.
sometimes i wish, im in australia. there with fahmi. so ill always have someone around, looking out for me. being really there when im sad or low. someone who can i always bully without feeling any guilt. lols. (:
oh well. life's always have too be harsh aye? its always like a box of cadbury roses, you dont know what flavour youll get. so when you get the flavour you hate most, thats reality check for you.
neh mind. maybe im pms-ing or sth. thanks to fahmi and rafie for the cheer up.
off now. sleeping early so can be at skool supeeer early to mug. then off meeting zack. then maybe back to skool again to mug.
good night everyone.
on a lighter note; rafie said sth that totally revealed his true colours; that is a pervertic flirt. yes. you have nooo idea what he said ystrday. neh mind. somethings shldnt go beyond my hp screen, cos if not, rafie's eyes will be like blue black, hehs XD
