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Friday, November 23, 2007 @ 7:12 AM
sth's not right. i can totally feel it. but i cant really point out whats wrong.
maybe im being too paranoid. like what rafie said. neh mind. when you're in my shoe, then you know that im not okay.
i dont know whats going on now.
i just realized YSTRDY, that my charity cup is next week, on the 26th nov. and no preps has been done yet. scheduling, memos for equipments, allocation of jobs for helpers, refs, blah blahs.
idk why i didnt realize that the cup clashed with the food implosion. idk why im so dumb and stupid to book the courts, not being aware that the dates clashed- when i should know better when's food implosion gonna start. bcos of this, how am i gonna find helpers last minute when i know most of the SB management comm gonna be down for the food implosion thingie.
my mind's like so messed up now. idk what to do, how to im supposed to react. dad advised me to quit ystrdy, seeing how tired and exhausted i was. nahh. im not the type who will do such stuff- leaving people to clean the shit im in now.
being a lazyass and fucked up person iam, i should have known better than to get involve in stuff i know i cant handle.
and when im in a fucking big shit, you just have to do all these- making me wonder where i've gone wrong, dont you? idk what i've done lahs. but what i know i dont deserve this shit from you.
whatever. this kind of thing bound to happen. if im in the wrong, at least you can just tell me NICELY right? its courtesy, if you still havent realised yet.
i know im sucha stupid naive sucker. let ppl push me around, doing their stuff that i fucking know that im not supposed to do. but hey, even how nice i am to you, and how much shit you've given me, and how happy i am, that doesnt mean you can really test my patience. that doesnt mean you can have things done your way. and that definitely doesnt mean that you can choose as and when to be in your fucking pissy mood and leaving me wondering what i've gone wrong. cos now's not the time for you to do all these hokays.
do you realise that- when everything's suddenly dawn on you that things are scrwed up, that its too late patch up the wound you've caused?
and to think, you'll be there whenever i need you? whenever im down? what a funny joke. i've really nothing to say.
like i told you, settle with whatever stuff you have against me yourself, cos im not in the fucking mood to entertain such stuff. and once you're done- and decided you're in your happy happy mood mood, tell me. and initiative please.
fahmi, where are you when i really need you now?
and just in case you hadnt realised yet, im not fucking okay.
Friday, November 23, 2007 @ 7:12 AM
sth's not right. i can totally feel it. but i cant really point out whats wrong.
maybe im being too paranoid. like what rafie said. neh mind. when you're in my shoe, then you know that im not okay.
i dont know whats going on now.
i just realized YSTRDY, that my charity cup is next week, on the 26th nov. and no preps has been done yet. scheduling, memos for equipments, allocation of jobs for helpers, refs, blah blahs.
idk why i didnt realize that the cup clashed with the food implosion. idk why im so dumb and stupid to book the courts, not being aware that the dates clashed- when i should know better when's food implosion gonna start. bcos of this, how am i gonna find helpers last minute when i know most of the SB management comm gonna be down for the food implosion thingie.
my mind's like so messed up now. idk what to do, how to im supposed to react. dad advised me to quit ystrdy, seeing how tired and exhausted i was. nahh. im not the type who will do such stuff- leaving people to clean the shit im in now.
being a lazyass and fucked up person iam, i should have known better than to get involve in stuff i know i cant handle.
and when im in a fucking big shit, you just have to do all these- making me wonder where i've gone wrong, dont you? idk what i've done lahs. but what i know i dont deserve this shit from you.
whatever. this kind of thing bound to happen. if im in the wrong, at least you can just tell me NICELY right? its courtesy, if you still havent realised yet.
i know im sucha stupid naive sucker. let ppl push me around, doing their stuff that i fucking know that im not supposed to do. but hey, even how nice i am to you, and how much shit you've given me, and how happy i am, that doesnt mean you can really test my patience. that doesnt mean you can have things done your way. and that definitely doesnt mean that you can choose as and when to be in your fucking pissy mood and leaving me wondering what i've gone wrong. cos now's not the time for you to do all these hokays.
do you realise that- when everything's suddenly dawn on you that things are scrwed up, that its too late patch up the wound you've caused?
and to think, you'll be there whenever i need you? whenever im down? what a funny joke. i've really nothing to say.
like i told you, settle with whatever stuff you have against me yourself, cos im not in the fucking mood to entertain such stuff. and once you're done- and decided you're in your happy happy mood mood, tell me. and initiative please.
fahmi, where are you when i really need you now?
and just in case you hadnt realised yet, im not fucking okay.
