H E R R A N D O M C R A P . B L O G S P O T . C O M ♥
Sunday, September 30, 2007 @ 3:57 PM
funny how some people think that a simple apology, or worse, the word "sorry" can make me forget all that shit i have to go through.
people might think that im damn petty for being mad over some small matters. if you think im as such, then you're fucking stupid.
im not the type of person who will get mad- if you dont come for a match (in which i tried VERY HARD to organise without anyone's help), just bcos you're drunk.
im not the type of person who will get angry- if you dont come for the friendly, just bcos you were waiting for the doc and dont even fucking bother to telling me waaay before hand.
im not the type who will make a big hooha- when i have to do all the shit, when you fucking jolly well knows thats your responsibilityto do it.
im not the type who will be annoyed- when i have to waste my prepaid just to contact people to come down for trainings. that includes those who came down for bball and soccer.
and im certainly wont go about fuming- about you sometimes gimme fucking shitty attitude pratically all the time. and i bet you're oblivious to it.
hate is a strong word, but i really really really dont like your attitude.
like i said, its not bcos of small matters that im being like this. but its bcos of SMALL MATTERS that ACCUMULATED day by day- thats making me fucking sick and tired of you.
i have been really forgiving since the start of the whole thing. everytime you did a slip up, just bcos of your laziness or whatsoever, i myself made up excuses for you- even though you didnt ask for it. thats bcos i respect you as the head and a friend. i have always giving you chances, thinking you might change as time goes on. it seems that you wont. and this time you have screwed up big time.
to tell you the truth, you have messed things up long ago. since the sports club friendly. that event really had placed a big mark in my heart- that you are seriously fucking unreliable and irresponsible. but that time, i believed in forgiveness. i let you off.
my patience for you have been running very thin. i was 5% close to washing my hands off you and the whole of sports thing. but wait- why should i just give all these up, when allthe teams have been built up using all my hardwork and effort? i have sacrifice alot- both tangible and intangible. and what have you been doing? just come to trainings, to show your face to all- and introduce yourself as sports coordinator when you did nothing to help me out? if you deny about what i said above, come on. prove to me. lay it out black and white for me to see. tell me laurel- what have to contribute on your part?
if you wish to not have any bad blood with me, too bad man. you already have. you're just too insensitive and oblivious to it.
and you think you want to take the workload off me- by start contacting people, blah blahs- so i can concentrate on other events, the only reaction on my part would be to laugh at you. very hard.
do you remember that time you took the ONLY copy of the contact list? do you remember what happen to it? do you even contact people down for trainnig while i was away? the capt told me turnout for training was poor. you should fucking know why it was poor. if you're too slow to recall why, THATS BECAUSE YOU LOST THAT PAPER DAMN IT. and i certainly remember that fucking shit attitude you gave me- when i bugged you for that contact details to call ppl down for trainning.
so again, why in the hell would i want to give you another contact list to you? for you to use it as toilet paper? i dont think so.
seriously. i dont need praises or acknowledgements. but i definitely dont deserve all this shit can!
you said its "emotionally punishing" when i cant be bothered talking to you. then what about me? its not emotionally punishing for me all this time when i had to handle all this shit?
just in case you dont know or too insensitive to know, i cant be bothered by all your apologies, email, smses right now. and definitely- i know im not ready or in the mood to talk to you, or even be near you now. i appreciate if you dont disturb me. its very emotionally punishing for me with your presence around. thank you.
and now, if you want to get drunk before friendly. dont bother showing your fucking face. or better. dont come at all. i prefer us getting thrashed, rather than having to put up with you and your crap.
and please, your sarcasm doesnt have an effect on me.
Sunday, September 30, 2007 @ 3:57 PM
funny how some people think that a simple apology, or worse, the word "sorry" can make me forget all that shit i have to go through.
people might think that im damn petty for being mad over some small matters. if you think im as such, then you're fucking stupid.
im not the type of person who will get mad- if you dont come for a match (in which i tried VERY HARD to organise without anyone's help), just bcos you're drunk.
im not the type of person who will get angry- if you dont come for the friendly, just bcos you were waiting for the doc and dont even fucking bother to telling me waaay before hand.
im not the type who will make a big hooha- when i have to do all the shit, when you fucking jolly well knows thats your responsibilityto do it.
im not the type who will be annoyed- when i have to waste my prepaid just to contact people to come down for trainings. that includes those who came down for bball and soccer.
and im certainly wont go about fuming- about you sometimes gimme fucking shitty attitude pratically all the time. and i bet you're oblivious to it.
hate is a strong word, but i really really really dont like your attitude.
like i said, its not bcos of small matters that im being like this. but its bcos of SMALL MATTERS that ACCUMULATED day by day- thats making me fucking sick and tired of you.
i have been really forgiving since the start of the whole thing. everytime you did a slip up, just bcos of your laziness or whatsoever, i myself made up excuses for you- even though you didnt ask for it. thats bcos i respect you as the head and a friend. i have always giving you chances, thinking you might change as time goes on. it seems that you wont. and this time you have screwed up big time.
to tell you the truth, you have messed things up long ago. since the sports club friendly. that event really had placed a big mark in my heart- that you are seriously fucking unreliable and irresponsible. but that time, i believed in forgiveness. i let you off.
my patience for you have been running very thin. i was 5% close to washing my hands off you and the whole of sports thing. but wait- why should i just give all these up, when allthe teams have been built up using all my hardwork and effort? i have sacrifice alot- both tangible and intangible. and what have you been doing? just come to trainings, to show your face to all- and introduce yourself as sports coordinator when you did nothing to help me out? if you deny about what i said above, come on. prove to me. lay it out black and white for me to see. tell me laurel- what have to contribute on your part?
if you wish to not have any bad blood with me, too bad man. you already have. you're just too insensitive and oblivious to it.
and you think you want to take the workload off me- by start contacting people, blah blahs- so i can concentrate on other events, the only reaction on my part would be to laugh at you. very hard.
do you remember that time you took the ONLY copy of the contact list? do you remember what happen to it? do you even contact people down for trainnig while i was away? the capt told me turnout for training was poor. you should fucking know why it was poor. if you're too slow to recall why, THATS BECAUSE YOU LOST THAT PAPER DAMN IT. and i certainly remember that fucking shit attitude you gave me- when i bugged you for that contact details to call ppl down for trainning.
so again, why in the hell would i want to give you another contact list to you? for you to use it as toilet paper? i dont think so.
seriously. i dont need praises or acknowledgements. but i definitely dont deserve all this shit can!
you said its "emotionally punishing" when i cant be bothered talking to you. then what about me? its not emotionally punishing for me all this time when i had to handle all this shit?
just in case you dont know or too insensitive to know, i cant be bothered by all your apologies, email, smses right now. and definitely- i know im not ready or in the mood to talk to you, or even be near you now. i appreciate if you dont disturb me. its very emotionally punishing for me with your presence around. thank you.
and now, if you want to get drunk before friendly. dont bother showing your fucking face. or better. dont come at all. i prefer us getting thrashed, rather than having to put up with you and your crap.
and please, your sarcasm doesnt have an effect on me.
